I still haven't found the scent that I miss. Not yet anyhow. I'm thinking this is a good thing, although the rest of my body doesn't whole-heartedly agree.

I think today might be a good day.

3 years ago a palm reader told me that I would meet "the one" around my senior year in college. Well, it's about my senior year in college. *puts a few winterfresh tic tacs into his mouth and checks under his arms* Ok, bring it on.

Andy, where are you? If you see this before I see you, please contact me somehow...at work today till 8:30 or maybe at home a little later. I'd love to talk, and right now, I could use a hug. :)

heh...I can't believe that I can access this from work. Right now, I have this wierd feeling in my stomach. the couselor says that my body tells me something everytime I feel any kind of emotion...the trick is to notice where I feel the energy and determine what I want to do with it. I'm not sure I understood, cuz I know where the fear is coming from...but what are my options for ways to get rid of it?


Also, I can't help but feel like I'm missing something. For everything and everyone that I've ever known, I have a strong sense of smell that is associated with them...and right now there is a certain smell that I miss. I'd love to go on and get it all out, but right now that doesn't seem like a viable option. I can't let this one out...not yet. But for now, yes, I do miss -----------. Hopefully it will come to an end soon.

And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

p.s. loop as in usual weekly routine...I just felt that needed more explanation.

This past week I've been thrown horribly out of my usual loop and I'm very uncomfortable with it. Hopefully it will all end soon. I just have to wait it out.


there are no coincidences?

ok, so she recommends that I go see a doctor because she "can't fix [my] brain." I guess I gotta go do it. However, she still wants to see me.

thought about ridding myself of this blog and starting something new

and I wait